I planned to stay in. I had wine, cheese and fruit. I had my TV and my couch. My best friend came by with dinner and we settled in for what we assumed would be an all-nighter-nail-biter. I expected to go to bed with the winner of the presidential election still being up in the air.Then it happened. CNN came back from a commercial break and announced that Barack Obama was projected to win the presidential election after securing California. It was surreal. Obama won. And he won by such a large margin that it couldn’t be stolen from him. I cheered; I called friends and family. It was only after I hung up with my grandmother that it hit me.
All at once, I experienced a wave of recognition and awe that took my breath away. My parents and grandparents hail from the deep-south. Their histories, the times and places they come from, are filled with so many stories of discrimination, hurt, exclusion and hate. It was sometimes painful, but alas, it was life as they knew it. Black Americans have made so many sacrifices and valuable contributions to this great nation, but for some, they would always be heralded as “less than.”
My grandmother was able to see this day. My grandfather was able to see this day. My mother and father, who have always taught me that I could become anything I wanted, were able to see a day where their words rang even truer. America has spoken and declared that we can embrace positive change, no matter what package it comes in.
I don’t declare racism in America dead; I believe it took extremely dire situations for some of us to put our prejudices aside and really consider the issues at hand. But I do celebrate the fact that we’ve taken a step in the right direction. The enormity of what we have just done as a collective voice in this country resounds within me.
I have shed so many tears before, wondering, “Why do they hate us so much?” My only transgression was having been born with brown skin. Last night, I shed tears of elation, and, damn it, a feeling of worthiness. I am not Barack Obama, but he has reached a place of accomplishment that has never before been reached by a black man in this country. And when his family took the stage with him last night, I felt like I was up there with them.
